Alo and De Reflections #20
(PD) Alo and De Lake on Land.
Copyright ©2018 September 27, 2018
Jun: Thank you for accompanying me here, to speak alone.
De: It is okay... Alo understands...
Jun: I often sit at home late at night, thinking of what you and Alo have told me... on occasion, the words arise with meanings that I did not recognize when I was first told the words. Alo had said something... little words... but at the time, I did not give attention to what the words might have implied... I merely assumed that he was speaking of little details, while not implying that the things were important. Later, I realized that his little words, were very important...
De: Alo... his way, is, his way... he does not fib... he gives effort to speak correctly, but, he often phrases his words more accurately than what we assume his tone of voice to imply... to Alo, what we sometimes think of as being big, he may think of as being small... his tone of voice, it expresses small... we do not always realize how important some words might be...
Jun: His words later intrigued me... little words... the words sound innocuous... harmless, innocent, unimportant... but then I began pondering the idea of what the words pointed to, and it struck me deeply that I have been cold, uncaring, unappreciative... selfish, self-centered of the body and mind, not caring for the things that I should have cared for... I then hurt inside... the self-conviction was deep... I hurt more...
De: Your red eyes, tell me that you are sincere...
Jun: Yes, very sincere... it was with compassion... I know what loneliness is, and I know much too well what it is like to not be cared for...
De: Your tears, tell me... reciprocation...
Jun: Yes... I did not know that it was possible... I had never heard of a thing like that... a thing so hugely big, but never spoken of... it arrived so effortlessly... and Alo's words, were toned as if it were small.
De: If, reciprocation, then... full?
Jun: I believe so... I cannot image it being more full, but, as you and Alo have said, there are no boundaries... if, it were possible for the reciprocation to be more, I am unsure if my body could survive...
De: Your voice's tones, your expressions, and the scents of your emotions, they tell me, the experience had breadths...
Jun: Yes... and, I am, hesitant, to speak of the descriptions... but, if you recognize my expressions, then, does that mean that you have also experienced similar?
De: Yes... but we do not speak much of it... it is one of the things, that we keep private...
Jun: We? Then Alo also...
De: Yes...
Jun: Oh... ... I do not know what else to say... I just felt a huge need to tell someone... you are the only person that I can share my secrets with. But, De... your eyes are also red now...
De: If, your experience, was what I believe it was, then, yes, I am very happy for you... it is, as, if, the first big step...
Jun: Oh, and I must also add, that the reciprocation occurred twice, by will... it was not merely a fluke... it is natural... repeatable.
De: Solitude has its advantages... but, the next step... a hurdle... each step, bigger than the first...
Jun: You went quiet shortly after you married Alo... reciprocation?
De: Yes...
Jun: Then, this tells me, that the inner harmony that some of the old men spoke of... and what Alo also speaks of... it really is creative... there really is more to it than mere logic and knowledge of a path.
De: Yes... 'oceans-oceans'... more breadths than can be imagined...
Jun: Aha, and there is another one that Alo had said, that I did not give much attention to... that of imagination... and now I see that it is true... I could not have imagined this before... it was not a thing that the mind can imagine...
De: The next steps... also not imagined...
Jun: But why, why are these things not spoken of in public? Is there a reason of why the people are not told?
De: Yes... ingredients... no need to speak of a thing, that the people cannot have... the people, their ingredients, have no harmony.
Jun: Yes... studying my memories, the reciprocation was unique... it would not have occurred if the ingredients were different... I was lucky... I happened to be in the right place, at the right time.
De: Not, luck...
Jun: No? Then, my path, it has attained some good ingredients?
De: Yes... my smile, is with hope, and happiness, for your happiness...
Jun: Thank you. It is now funny to me... before, I repeatedly thought to myself that I needed to get married, so that I could experience reciprocation... but now, I understand... the desire to attain my path, the desire itself prohibits the path... desire is not a harmonious ingredient... and, so, now, I have chosen to simply go forward, as I am... bettering myself, only for the reason that it is the correct way.
De: Reflection...
Jun: The little word... it now means so much more to me...
De: Intelligence...
Jun: All gone... compared to creativity... intelligence, is, as if, irrelevant...